Many times I've said that I love my computer because plenty of my friends live in it and even joked about liking online people way better than I do RL people... although many times that's true. But even though I'm very close with a few and absolutely love some others, there's always that little annoying voice in the back of my head telling me I should be careful cause I really don't know who's behind the monitor.
I fight that voice all the time.
When it comes to online relationships I like to think of myself as a blind person. I don't need to see someone in order to get to know them. With time and enough interaction come familiarity. You learn the other person's voice. You learn their mannerisms, their behavior... you learn them. And you get attached and you identify and you can relate and you love them.
Like I loved Mores.
Most of you met him recently and probably briefly. I knew him a little longer than that. We talked about relationships. We talked about hope and what's out there nowadays... whether it is worth it to look forward to something or give up. And I will never forget him telling me "don't lose hope. Look at me and where I am right now. It'll happen for you too."
To say I am devastated after learning of his passing would be the understatement of the year. Knowing he will never be around feels like a darn hole in my chest. It's been only hours and I miss his presence like crazy. This is the last thing I expected to hear when I first noticed he was missing from my friends list. And I'm confused. I had an IM conversation with him a few days ago and he was happy! He was feeling good. It hurts that something like this happened when he was finally happy. I can only imagine what his family is going through right now.
Rest in Peace, Mores. I love you and you'll be forever missed.